it seemed so long ago..

well i guess the primary reason that i set up this blog, prob my third or fourth was to not go crazy. think its been a while since i mused to myself, and reflected on what exactly has been happening thus far..

well the o levels came and went. just as quickly as it started, it was over. guess that right now theres nothing we can do but wait. wait in anticipation. but i guess it doesnt really matter how well or badly i do..

im going to hongkong to study the ib programme. which means that i will be missing jc life in singapore. is that good? so my dad says. and i guess i cant really argue with that. i just wish that i could lead a normal life, and not have to be pushed into all these weird stuff which i really dont want to do. i dont know whether to hate my dad since he told me that i can stay in singapore if i do well for the o levels. and then he tells me im going there to study. im feeling quite hurt by it but i also dont know whether i should express this view cuz i also dont want to make him feel worse than he is. so i just have to suffer. painfully..

which is prob the real reason im having a blog. i need a place where i can just let go of my emotions. feeling very very emo right now, esp after what happened today. dont want to go into detail but every time i tell my self that i have let go, a feeling in me just tells me to go for it. that i can still do it. but an awkward silence separates us so i guess things will go the way it is going, i go to hongkong and no more love in my life. guess that works both ways again.

well to all those who are reading this, thanks for just taking time off to read this. i wont be updating regularly so maybe just once or twice a week. sometimes more. i dont know. if i feel like it.

God i need your help. im slowly drifing away from you. i need to stop moving away from you..