NEW PHONE

new phone in new blogger! how amazing. ok anyway, its the new, sony ericsson, K800i! you know, that one with the best camera functions. ooo im so excited! my previous phone was a samsung, which was i think 3 or 4 years old, which was at $0 with the plan. u know one of those cheap phones, with only sms, mms and basic phone functions (it had a camera, which spoilt -.-) and so an upgrade to this phone is like WOAH. totally amazing, it doesnt feel like my phone. its like its been borrowed! oh man, ok, enough about all that...

so yup, took photos of discovery bay, where im staying at right now, with the K800i! check it out here.


so ok quick update about my life (for those who care/bother/toodamnedbored). just about completed 1 month's stay here already, so i guess im pretty much settled in already. i will not be going back to collect my o level results cuz i still have school here, so i guess my mum/sisters might be getting it, or im gonna leave it rotting in the admin office. haha, but i will be back for chinese new year, flying back on the 16th, will touch down at night, and will be leaving on the 25th. im hoping that i get 6 points for o levels.. which if i recall isnt promising, but i guess i'll just see how things turn out. and im really really hoping that i get below 10 so that i can at least keep my phone (it was a bargain with my dad, i get below 10, i get the phone, but he bought it earlier for some reason). so yeah guess what happens happens, life is gonna go on pretty much the same here anyway. and erm, might be joining rugby here. haha, 4 years of scouting life.. man, i will always remember what alfred nathan said to me when i was in sec 1, dont join scouts lah, everytime after they leave sji than they join rugby, always to impress the girls (or something along that line) and i remember thinking nvm, i'll be happy in scouts , maybe better. well. did things turn out the way i naively thought it would? who knows. whatever it is, im feeling quite sad for the venture and scout unit right now. its not exactly doing well from what i understand, and im thinking that right now if i was actually in singapore i would be in ventures. i just feel a certain obligation. but yeah, not gonna happen..

alright, must get fit! HAHA :D

i need new music

well i need to find a new type of music to listen to. haha, im moving on from emo, but will always love dashboard confessional. any recommendations, please tag! dont care who you are, just tag! even if you're, erm, the blogger dude who's doing a spot check to make sure this isnt a spam blog, please tag! thank you! ahahaha.

nonsense. ok i had no school on friday! heh, and so i had a fair load of work to do if it was done over the three days. but stupid me decided ok lets take a breather on friday, so hardly anything done then. saturday came! and i.. slacked. so today is sunday, i suddenly realised that i have a thousand and one things to do for homework, and its not done! gosh, work work. so i have to try and squeeeeeeze as much as i can done today, i think im not gonna be doing drama, i still havent finished my stupid book, touching the void, (its not a stupid book, just seems like a burden after watching the movie), and i have science, history, math which i still need to get completed! rushhh...

well, to anyone who is reading this, starlight by muse is a nice song! well i never really liked muse, cuz of their hit single, massive black hole, which was compared to britney spears' do something, so that put me off. haha, but i have to admit muse is quite a good band.

alrighty, back to work
WOKAY
HOKAY -CS

oh and for some reason i have taken a liking to appearing offline. work must be done! so much to do, so much to see, so whats wrong if you dont see me. heh

suddenly

now i see. why emo poems just arent meant for everyone to read and comments. its simply cuz its MY emo poem, not anyone else. just the same way, i read other people's emo poems, and i go on with my own life. cuz emo poems are just meant to be personal. revalation..

ok, so im sorta going up and down on the emo-meter (i just came up with that name!). but i gotta tell myself that this isnt out of my control, i can do something about it. take the choice. do what you want. smile (:

btw, if anyone of u guys are wondering what that catchy song on the nokia commercial is, its digital love by daft punk. kinda catchy, and its not getting out of my head. enough of emo music, have a listen to daft punk! [yes nette, it seems that i am a daft punk now. hahaha] and they have this whole anime series for their songs on their album Discovery, so if you're curious go youtube and type interstella 5555. i guess what makes the anime really infectious is the music itself. but if it isnt your cup of tea, dont blame me! just take it as another brainless moment in your life.

ok, so it seems that things are slowly changing. gotta stop acting and thinking like a kid soon. as in seriously soon. even though i hate the adult world (can you say hypocrites?), i guess this is really time for me to grow up. things arent gonna change if i run away from reality.

so long, and goodnight

a poem which i penned down in science class. i think its nice..

Climbing a Broken Window
The rain played his part
You stole my heart
She wore her smile
He walked the green mile
We ran out far
They formed a scar
Their tears fell dry
Our fires turned to sighs
His body crumbled within
Her confession of her sin
Your life and your love
The sun and the dove.

hk is now warmer, but it started raining again today so its freezing right now. again, i ended up doing something which i didnt want to. do i feel guilt? right now, no. why? because at least i tried. tried to do something to change the rut im in. did it help? i tried.

chinese new year. im looking forward to it.

i wish i was happy

and not sad.

myrh is mine, its bitter perfume
breathes a life, of gathering gloom
sorrowing, sighing, bleeding, dying
sealed in a stone cold tomb

i am stupid

its a truth. today has been a pretty stupid day, stupid referring to me.
a week has passed since i entered cis
and im feeling darned stupid already
gosh..
i really am stupid
stop the ranting
goodnight

HK IS COLD

man how many more times am i gonna say that. but seriously, its freaking cold. i cant take it. its been hovering around 10 degrees these days, and after coming from singapore, i cant take it. and i heard its minus 3 degrees in uk. and its not even snowing! like wth, that kind of temperature and no snow?! thats a total rip off! if u wanna go to a country with a cold winter, MAKE SURE THERE'S SNOW. yup..

ok, so im pretty much gettig used to my new school, which is kinda fun, but its very different. and today was the first time i saw any teacher say anything negative to the students (other than my history teacher), which was pretty surprising, but i guess i should have expected it. and well, im still getting the hang of the place, getting to know people. im really bad at names, so i cant seem to be able to remember everyone's yet, so people talk to me and i dont even know their names =X so embarassing. and everyone seems to be kinda jealous that i dont have to do personal project, but i can understand why.. so yeah well, guess thats that. now to seriously try and understand what im supposed to do when researching about an educational toy.

hongkong holding

hmm. havent updated in a while
well, things in hongkong are pretty cool
the temperature is 10 degrees
and me being a singaporean living around the equator is not used to this cold climate.
went for 2 days of school already
people are friendly.
thats one good thing.
and the teachers are also quite nice, crazy too.
i have comcluded that good history teachres (e.g. my sji hist teacher and current one) are loud, crazy, but but, good.
haha
im not feeling very good right now
is it my stomach?
guilt perhaps.
i dont know
im doing things that i dont want to, or i know i shouldnt be doing
bleargh, i sort of regret my decision to come to hongkong.
well not my decision, my agreement.
not so much that i hate hongkong. i got over that. it seems kinda acceptable since school is sort of fun.
its more of what im missing back in singapore.
i miss being able to go to church so conveniently, and always being able to find people to go with on sundays.
i miss my room in singapore
i miss the hot weather
i miss the life i left back there
the good old days
kuching, carolling, having fun
ouch.

-God, i dont want to distance myself from you. please, i need your help, please help me back to You-