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so the emoness in me finally came out in full force today. yes, was so emo that i felt like just breaking down, co-incidentally right before my rugby game. clearly, being alone the day before my birthday is not something which i have done and im not coping very well. i miss my life back in singapore, and its killing me right now to know that there wont actually be anyone around when it strikes midnight. maybe im just thinking too much, perhaps sleep is what i really need. dad is currently in jakarta, so im home alone in hongkong. strangely, even though this isnt the first time that im home alone, im feeling that loneliness more than i would have previously. maybe its cuz its my birthday tmr, and all the people i call friends are back in singapore. and im stuck in hongkong. sigh, maybe emo isnt that bad after all. i dont have anything to bother me right now, which isnt really a good thing, but i guess i shall think of something. sigh...

all i want
is someone to pull me out
im stuck in a traffic jam..
with nowhere to run
for miles...