what am i doing here
Those of you who are reading this would probably know that I'm in China right now. There's something which I just can't seem to work out no matter how many times I think about it today. I think its probably the solitude on a Sunday, that I realized how remote this place actually is. Where is my family. Where are my friends. What am I doing here? What happened to waking up late and then going to Flying Pan with the dudes, or either that going for mass in the morning with my dad? What about any of those times when I'd actually be at church at 10:45 for mass, hanging around after mass service was over and possibly going for lunch.
So much has happened this week. Working life is, to say the least, very different from school life. Which will immediately compel one to draw a comparison between the two. Which is better? Schooling or working. Getting this small taste of work, it would seem that working is actually better. Yet there's one problem, I've overlooked the fact that in the working world, there are no school holidays. There are no teachers to hound you for homework. There are bosses/supervisors to do that (although I've been fortunate not to have anyone screaming at me yet). You have your own desk, and you stay at that desk, all day. You have colleagues. Colleagues, not classmates, perhaps friends, possibly not. But in school you have the pressure of always having to perform up to your parents expectations (oddly enough, this has seemed to creep into my working life). In school, you have school responsibilities to take up. Leadership positions. And there are tests and exams to study for, exams that might determine your working life. And a whole lot of other stuff which everyone is all to familiar with. Enough rambling, which is better you now ask? I just have this to say. The grass is always greener on the other side.
Be happy with your life really. The same things that you see in school when dealing with other people is the same as in the working world. Possibly to a larger scale, depending on your job. The smart ones will always be the smart ones, those with skills will be the trainers, but its those who have the charisma and the ability to communicate people that really become the leaders. Well that's not really considering other unscrupulous means, but I'm not really in the mood for talking about that. I guess what I seem to have figured is, adults are the same as kids. They just like different stuff and have different tastes, and probably more experience in life. But the fact is that they are all still humans, and age is just a number. It's not what's stated on your passport that counts, it's what you present to others, and how you work with others, that will gain their respect.
On another note, I finally have come to the full agreement with myself that I do not regret one bit the decision to join scouts. After all those years of enduring scouting life, all the times when I got disappointed with the things that were happening to me and those around me in scouts, its all coming into play here. I finally realized just how similar the two of them are, scouts and work. I can't really explain it right now, but I'm just really grateful that at the point of time Mr. Nathan asked me to change my CCA to rugby, I held firm and stuck with scouts. Its an experience no rugby player will ever understand, or for that matter any sports player. I guess Samuel Tee was very justified in saying that he joined scouts for survival skills, I'm surviving work right now with a large portion due to my experiences from scouts.
I'm not even sure why I'm talking about all this. I guess its that time of the week when all that's filling your mind are the thoughts of how remotely lonely you could possibly be, and how detached you are from the real world, and yet being conscious of the choice that you made to agree to all this. I'm lonely right now, I'll admit that, yet oddly enough I'm not on MSN with anyone right now. I guess what I really need is someone, just someone to sit down right next to me now, someone I know, that I care for and can call a true friend, someone to just sit with me, and keep me company.
When the nights get lonely
My head is filled with thoughts of you
So much has happened this week. Working life is, to say the least, very different from school life. Which will immediately compel one to draw a comparison between the two. Which is better? Schooling or working. Getting this small taste of work, it would seem that working is actually better. Yet there's one problem, I've overlooked the fact that in the working world, there are no school holidays. There are no teachers to hound you for homework. There are bosses/supervisors to do that (although I've been fortunate not to have anyone screaming at me yet). You have your own desk, and you stay at that desk, all day. You have colleagues. Colleagues, not classmates, perhaps friends, possibly not. But in school you have the pressure of always having to perform up to your parents expectations (oddly enough, this has seemed to creep into my working life). In school, you have school responsibilities to take up. Leadership positions. And there are tests and exams to study for, exams that might determine your working life. And a whole lot of other stuff which everyone is all to familiar with. Enough rambling, which is better you now ask? I just have this to say. The grass is always greener on the other side.
Be happy with your life really. The same things that you see in school when dealing with other people is the same as in the working world. Possibly to a larger scale, depending on your job. The smart ones will always be the smart ones, those with skills will be the trainers, but its those who have the charisma and the ability to communicate people that really become the leaders. Well that's not really considering other unscrupulous means, but I'm not really in the mood for talking about that. I guess what I seem to have figured is, adults are the same as kids. They just like different stuff and have different tastes, and probably more experience in life. But the fact is that they are all still humans, and age is just a number. It's not what's stated on your passport that counts, it's what you present to others, and how you work with others, that will gain their respect.
On another note, I finally have come to the full agreement with myself that I do not regret one bit the decision to join scouts. After all those years of enduring scouting life, all the times when I got disappointed with the things that were happening to me and those around me in scouts, its all coming into play here. I finally realized just how similar the two of them are, scouts and work. I can't really explain it right now, but I'm just really grateful that at the point of time Mr. Nathan asked me to change my CCA to rugby, I held firm and stuck with scouts. Its an experience no rugby player will ever understand, or for that matter any sports player. I guess Samuel Tee was very justified in saying that he joined scouts for survival skills, I'm surviving work right now with a large portion due to my experiences from scouts.
I'm not even sure why I'm talking about all this. I guess its that time of the week when all that's filling your mind are the thoughts of how remotely lonely you could possibly be, and how detached you are from the real world, and yet being conscious of the choice that you made to agree to all this. I'm lonely right now, I'll admit that, yet oddly enough I'm not on MSN with anyone right now. I guess what I really need is someone, just someone to sit down right next to me now, someone I know, that I care for and can call a true friend, someone to just sit with me, and keep me company.
When the nights get lonely
My head is filled with thoughts of you
posted by John Lee at
5:31 PM
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