if only no more

Dad talked to me about what's been going on in my life. Again, I realise how smart my parents really are.

My dad told me why I'm still holding on, and I couldn't agree with him more.

And he's told me what's the best thing I could possibly do for myself and someone else.

I need to start taking action.

You can only change things if you have the power to.
you could only have changed things if you had the power to.
So if there was nothing I could do in the first place
There is no point thinking that there was anything that I could have done.
So if there wasn't anything that I could have done
I should just move on and accept that fact.

Yes I guess I still am an immature punk that needs to grow up. A lot of growing up.

I should have realised that it will always be my Singapore friends who will really stay with me. Got blinded by so many things.

And yet I'm still not over it.

daze

there is no going back.
wednesday, 26th september, 2007
12: 45 am

Too tired for tears
Too worried for fears
A little peace of life
Would bloody the dark of the scythe.

gibberish

Does music set a mood? Or does it encourage one? Is it possible to listen to "emo" music and not feel "emo"? If music encourages a mood, then what mood are we actually feeling? Is it possible to feel more than one mood? If it is, then why are we feeling so many moods at once? And then, if we are feeling so many moods, wouldn't we be confused as to what we are feeling? So are we always confused? Then why do people feel frustrated when they get confused? What is confusing them? Is it the presence of another mood that they are unable to understand? Or is it the imbalance of moods? Can there actually be a balance of moods? What is the right balance?

Chris Daughtry - Used To
You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around.
You used to lean on me like
The only other choice was falling down.
You used to walk with me like
We had nowhere we needed to go,
Nice and slow, to no place in particular.

We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?

I look around me,
And I want you to be there
'Cause I miss the things that we shared.
Look around you.
It's empty, and you're sad
'Cause you miss the love that we had.

should i?

I still don't know what it is that I want. I'd like to say that things aren't complicated, but they are. I don't even know how to explain to myself what is going on. For some reason people have been telling I should just because I have a personal message of "should I" on my msn. I don't even really know what I'm asking myself in that question, or statement. And I don't really wanna figure out what it is either, had enough thinking for a while.

To anyone who might be reading this, I am okay. I am not gonna do anything stupid, so don't worry. I can't say too much here cuz it still is quite public, and I don't want too many people to know about what's happening, but if you're really curious come and ask me.

And I suddenly discovered that there is no particular song I am obsessed with at the moment. Why is that... I'm still trying to figure that one out. I usually do have a song stuck in my head. Hmmm....

On another note, good luck to all mugging! Prelims are over, but the grand finale awaits, you don't want to be caught unprepared! (: That was for those taking O's and A's, to all those who have promos, good luck, I think it's already started? Yeah, mug hard everyone.

Incoherence

A face to forget
A turn you never met
The corner on the street
Is blinking at your feet

Light up a candle
Put on your coat
March together with everyone
To the knowledge of the heat

Is it harder to be awake
Or to be alive
Are you really breathing
Or is this all a dream