irregularity report

today was bad/stoned/tiring/happy/coincidental. and the day isnt even up yet. i predict its gonna be back to bad tonight. lets see..

woke up at 8:47am. suddenly realised that i slept through my dental appointment, which started at 8:15 and takes half and hour. which meant that i woke up almost exactly when my appointment should have ended. felt terrible. but dont have anyone to blame but myself.. sigh..

so then just stoned around at home. played bnet. actually played agains jonny, gabriel, darren quah without realising it. haha..

went out to collect my passport around 1. waiting for my turn took at least an hour. basically stoned around and let my headache get worse. it was just so painful..

on the way home from the mrt i chanced upon the idea of going vivocity! so yup, first time there, it is huge. and really really awesome. i love candy empire! (not the prices there) it has such a perfect location, the first thing i saw when i came out of the mrt station was CANDY EMPIRE. sweet.

was walking to the bus interchange, was gonna wait at my bus area when i saw jo. so amazing that i met her there! we were like talking for a while then went to get something to eat, so went bk. and then guess what. we met kelly! it was just so freaky. and at bk as i was queueing up, i met. milton. this world is reaaallllly small. so thats that.

tonight my mum is gonna call from malaysia and ask my how my day was. and im gonna have to tell her that i missed my appointment. stupid stupid stupid me. well good night.

(and if you're wondering why im blogging so much, i dont know, i guess its kidna addictive when u start a blog, but after a while it will lose its appeal, so dont take this as what my daily blog would look like, updated.)

well what do u know

i'm posting more often than i said i would! haha.. well i slept at 5 yesterday, got woken up at 10. grr, 5 hours of sleep.. but surprisingly im not as sleepy as i thought i would be. nat came to my house today cuz chris had some appointment around here! haha, we played a few rounds of mahjong, i won all! =)

so then i went for the kuching preparations. balloon making! haha i used to do it with my family last time but kinda stopped, but i think i've still got it! haha.. dinner at macs, at too much fries, i feel oily. i had a hamburger, then got my own fries, than chin hao offered me some, then marianne made me eat hers. haha..

then was line dancing. kinda getting the hang of it i guess. i'm sorry i have long legs!

then just basically stoned around, almost everyone left except me jo and a few others. so was having quite a ncie talk with her. ya guess there isnt anything wrong with being emo. i mean a person who isnt emo can be considered as void of emotions right? haha.. but yeah we talked about quite alot of stuff, about the church and other stuff. dont worry jo, i promise i wont tell anyone about what u told me that u only told one other person. there's really nothing wrong in keeping your feelings to yourself, but i guess it could become unhealthy. i'm here as a friend if u need anyone to talk to! well thats if u dont mind haha (:

so while on my bus home i was just thinking of a poem so yup here goes:

Fatigue
We are here today for this solemn occasion,
For the sake of commemeration.
Of this certain human being,
Who spent all his time seeking.
Seeking a life of lost tranquility,
Seeking a life void of all worry.
He was dedicated to do this all his life,
He endured all trials of fire and strife.
He never gave up on his conquest,
And not even the the bleakest of tests.
For black is but a colour,
That reflects a time of the darkest hour.
Overcome this feeling to surge ahead,
Give up all comforts like breakfast in bed.
This man, he walked, all through this search,
With 2 companions, his bag and his birch.
He found what he was looking for, perhaps too late,
For when he collapsed, he said ,"Son, it is fate."
And so we learn that fate is what keeps us in place,
And lets us never stop this hasty pace.
Good luck my friends.

finally, i go out!

after such a long while yeah? haha.. well i guess it was fun for the most of it. we watched happy feet, which was a really entertaining movie, but zero depth to it, but still funny. worth a watch if u like brainless humour i guess...

then had dinner with li shaan. haha, been a while since i had such a nice meal with someone. we actually called qing lao shi! haha and she said some weird stuff. heh. oh well

yay tmr theres kuching preparations. okay so hope that things go well, i should sleep more. (on a side note, at least im not feeling so emo today. i think going out really helps to neutralise this stupid feeling. DIE EMO)

it seemed so long ago..

well i guess the primary reason that i set up this blog, prob my third or fourth was to not go crazy. think its been a while since i mused to myself, and reflected on what exactly has been happening thus far..

well the o levels came and went. just as quickly as it started, it was over. guess that right now theres nothing we can do but wait. wait in anticipation. but i guess it doesnt really matter how well or badly i do..

im going to hongkong to study the ib programme. which means that i will be missing jc life in singapore. is that good? so my dad says. and i guess i cant really argue with that. i just wish that i could lead a normal life, and not have to be pushed into all these weird stuff which i really dont want to do. i dont know whether to hate my dad since he told me that i can stay in singapore if i do well for the o levels. and then he tells me im going there to study. im feeling quite hurt by it but i also dont know whether i should express this view cuz i also dont want to make him feel worse than he is. so i just have to suffer. painfully..

which is prob the real reason im having a blog. i need a place where i can just let go of my emotions. feeling very very emo right now, esp after what happened today. dont want to go into detail but every time i tell my self that i have let go, a feeling in me just tells me to go for it. that i can still do it. but an awkward silence separates us so i guess things will go the way it is going, i go to hongkong and no more love in my life. guess that works both ways again.

well to all those who are reading this, thanks for just taking time off to read this. i wont be updating regularly so maybe just once or twice a week. sometimes more. i dont know. if i feel like it.

God i need your help. im slowly drifing away from you. i need to stop moving away from you..