pain.hurt.reality.love.lacking.

i am in hongkong.
the weather is cold.
my morale is low.
reality is creeping in right now.
kuching seems totally magical already.
i'm in agony thinking about it.

i'm not gonna reflect about my life any more. it hurts too much. a huge hole is left in my heart right now, or rather my heart is left back in singapore. i dont want to face up to the reality that i really am in hongkong right now. and will be for another 2 and a half years. pain is the only emotion which i am capable of feeling right now. im trying to run away from it now. call it escapism or whatever, im feeling pained.

i wanna thank all the people who came to send me off yesterday. im really really touched by all your actions, i never expected so many people to come. it was overwhelming. oh crap, im already feeling the pain again. chin hao, marcus, justin, cheryl, jolenta, val, valtan, marianne, kelly, joanne, jerell, rod, deyong, zhaoloong, and the chia family. thank you all so much.

happy new year all.