she's on your mind

well thats if there was a she. i can't stand it when my parents make it seem as if there is a special someone i have/want to have/thinking of having/whatever. am i really a guai kia? maybe, just maybe, deep down i probably am some little kid afraid to do things, afraid to do anything that will get me scolded. i never had a normal life. no one really knows my parents but me and my sisters. i appreciate marcus' optimism about me coming back to singapore after i get my o level results but the truth is i already know the outcome without it being said. its impossible. i already told them that i would commit to it, even though i never really meant it. but then again, i dont know. when does loving stop being love and turn into hurt?

well i went to the beach on saturday! haha had loads of fun playing asshole tai ti, playing around in the water, all sorts of weird stuff. hahahaha. got slightly sunburnt from all of that. apparently i look brown now (according to jo).

was just pondering about something. Does The End Really Justify The Means? suppose i was like president of usa (just supposing) and i want world peace, so i stage a war against all hostlie nations and eventually billions of people get killed, but, we achieve our target, world peace! no more wars! well, the aim of world peace was eventually obtained, but so many people were eventually killed, and even so world peace might not be definite. what i am really trying to say is that does it really mean that we can really choose any method we want, and no matter the casualties or the cost, as long as we make the ideal outcome, it is still a justified method? just something i was thinking about...