thanks all! <3

yeahh thanks to everyone for all the birthday wishes
and hugs and songs and cake! (:
birthday this year was just simply beautiful. thanks everyone! :D

............

so the emoness in me finally came out in full force today. yes, was so emo that i felt like just breaking down, co-incidentally right before my rugby game. clearly, being alone the day before my birthday is not something which i have done and im not coping very well. i miss my life back in singapore, and its killing me right now to know that there wont actually be anyone around when it strikes midnight. maybe im just thinking too much, perhaps sleep is what i really need. dad is currently in jakarta, so im home alone in hongkong. strangely, even though this isnt the first time that im home alone, im feeling that loneliness more than i would have previously. maybe its cuz its my birthday tmr, and all the people i call friends are back in singapore. and im stuck in hongkong. sigh, maybe emo isnt that bad after all. i dont have anything to bother me right now, which isnt really a good thing, but i guess i shall think of something. sigh...

all i want
is someone to pull me out
im stuck in a traffic jam..
with nowhere to run
for miles...

bleed

i see the darkness
its beckoning
glory? there is no mercy with glory
all is but a facade
eventually, the primitive weakness will outdo the reigning madness
there is no quiet
there is only hatred
the love is lost
henceforth, all the ends of the earth are doomed.

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feelings failing
seasons sending
tender timing
ever ending
close the curtain
shut the stonecave
latch the lighter
down the dishes
where have all the roses gone?
they're black, as black, as the rose of hell
it screams, it pines, it calls for its home
but home is not where it belongs
among the mortals
amongst all men
it dwells within
the present tense
so shield your heart
divide your soul
and maybe, u just might lose control.

TGIF

finally its the weekend. man i have never been so happy that its friday in singapore, but that could partly be due to the fact that i had scouts. what a nice thing to look forward to. lol...

oh well, this week has been pretty crazy. sleeping odder hours than i ever have in my life (except maybe scout camps), and all sorts of weird things going through my mind.

drama rehearsal tmr, lines lines lines. trindle better not have anything more to say. hahaha

i realised that my style of blogging is getting more random. good or bad? well i know that i havent posted anything even remotely intellectual for a while, but then again, do i ever?

so yes, goodnight to anyone who still visits this. haha

i just woke up!

and i slept at.. 9pm
hahaha

on another note, jolenta's in hongkong!
whee haha yes this is getting better (:

and almost all my work is done once i finish gmo essay
sweeeeet

plus, i just bought a sugar ray cd ytd for...
hk$20!!
which if u didnt know, is S$4!!
hahaha nice

don't shoot the person next to you
you never know when he will

edit: 6:15am - check THIS out
hoping it happens (:
then Asia will reign supreme! muahahahaha

note to self: need to stop editting this post so many times.
and, u should shut down the computer around now
school yes?

disturbing

something is seriously distracting me
and its not good.
i never was like this
and so many things are confusing me now
do i need love?
who needs love
i need to get my work done but i dont know how
im irritated with everyone and no one
i might be going crazy
and im losing myself
and God
vulnerability.....

something's not right

i cant concentrate
something is distracting me
badly
i need to finish my work
desperately...

help

but if you feel like leaving, im not gonna make you stay

oh man second post in less than an hour. im feeling slightly weird now. i dont wanna label it as emo. listening to that song down below is really making me think about stuff. i dont want to, i have work to do. shut up mind.

i need to think of a solution to all this.

in the mean time, im gonna force myself not to sleep until im done with question 1 and 2 for history, which means that im probably not gonna sleep.

delusion again. oh well....

you can run
you can hide
but you can't escape my love.

nostalgia

song which i recently rediscovered.
simply amazing...
i really love it
and so many other songs
been finding more recently

on another note, hello GOD. seems like u found my blog. well all i have to say is, have fun in whatever jc you're in. im in hk now. so it doesnt really matter. oh and just a request, please if u could be like more polite here than u were previously. thanks.