Where is tomorrow

Have you ever woken up from a dream, and you think that you're awake, and then you wake up even later, and wonder: Was that a dream? I was in a dream. Then I woke up, or thought I woke up, I even looked at my alarm clock which said 7:28am, and I wake up feeling as though I had just woken up. I'm not sure how to express this...

So I told my dad about it, and then he starts telling me how even if I was awake it wouldn't really make a difference. I'm still dreaming even when I'm awake. I'm simply coasting through life, no purpose or direction, no motivation to do anything. I agree with him. I truly lack the motivation to do anything. (Sidenote, Motivate comes from two words, motive and vate, meaning moving from inside. Which basically means that only you can motivate yourself since it comes from inside you, not outside of you)

It's not fair to my dad if I waste my time here getting an average grade, and being the biggest underachiever. I have to change, the problem is how. I need to find something for me to aim towards. I have to start believing I can do stuff, and making sure I can do stuff. I have to start knowing when to say no to being lazy, and when to be who I should be, achieving what I really can.