I am overwhelmed

Is equality good? If we really do what we are always told to do, and if we all are treated the same, is that all really as great as it might seem? If we all were to abide by the law always, would that mean we would have a fixed set of thoughts? Should we actually be allowed an alternative education? Is education really the reason for the way humans think? Is the occasional shining star among the mediocre really the star because of a greater talent, or more hard work? Are these thoughts normal? Am I normal? Do I want to be normal? What do I want to be? Should I just tell my parents I want to be a normal person, with a normal lifestyle, and nothing extravagant or luxurious? Should I stop all these thoughts?

*edit: Another thought, can a square be shaped into a circle, or vice versa?